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Dear beloved, I’m writing this because it’s been 2 and a half month since we last spoke. I was obsessed with winning you back. You were the love of my life. But you threw me away and won’t give me the time of day. I was jealous of you giving all your attention to these random guys when I had so much trouble seeing you smile. I was possessive I wanted to make sure you were by my side. I kept tabs on you because it’s a scary world out there, I was depressed until you forced most of it away. I had anxiety but I was betrayed my whole life. And in the end you did too… Before that dreadful day I was going to tell you it was time to change. That I was going to fix myself and make you happy again. See, your worth so much to me. Yes you are my first, yes there are plenty more out there, but none are like you. You're not perfect. Not a lot of people like you. Not many people want to even talk to you. But not me. For the year and a half I spent with you I learned so much. And I made a vow tha...

Dear beloved, I’m writing this because it’s been 2 and a half month since we last spoke. I was obsessed with winning you back. You were the love of my life. But you threw me away and won’t give me the time of day. I was jealous of you giving all your attention to these random guys when I had so much trouble seeing you smile. I was possessive I wanted to make sure you were by my side. I kept tabs on you because it’s a scary world out there, I was depressed until you forced most of it away. I had anxiety but I was betrayed my whole life. And in the end you did too… Before that dreadful day I was going to tell you it was time to change. That I was going to fix myself and make you happy again. See, your worth so much to me. Yes you are my first, yes there are plenty more out there, but none are like you. You're not perfect. Not a lot of people like you. Not many people want to even talk to you. But not me. For the year and a half I spent with you I learned so much. And I made a vow tha...

I’ve always thought that if I knew the truth about something, then I could learn any lesson necessary to either prevent the mistake from recurring, or move past the pain it caused with the knowledge I gained. Typically I’ve always used the time after a breakup to do soul searching and try to objectively look at all aspects of why the relationship failed. This usually is enough of an out briefing to gain any necessary closure and put the relationship in the rear view. For reasons that I don’t understand, following this process has been something I’ve not been able to do, and the results have been emotionally devastating. For me personally, gaining closure is not only very important to be able to grieve, but also to be able to accept and move on from the painful memories of the failures. At first, I was accepting of the belief that I had enough information to be able to analyze and evaluate the factors that affected the outcome, but the more thought I seemed to put in, the more confused ...

I’ve always thought that if I knew the truth about something, then I could learn any lesson necessary to either prevent the mistake from recurring, or move past the pain it caused with the knowledge I gained. Typically I’ve always used the time after a breakup to do soul searching and try to objectively look at all aspects of why the relationship failed. This usually is enough of an out briefing to gain any necessary closure and put the relationship in the rear view. For reasons that I don’t understand, following this process has been something I’ve not been able to do, and the results have been emotionally devastating. For me personally, gaining closure is not only very important to be able to grieve, but also to be able to accept and move on from the painful memories of the failures. At first, I was accepting of the belief that I had enough information to be able to analyze and evaluate the factors that affected the outcome, but the more thought I seemed to put in, the more co...